Why do I always have to be the one reaching out?

I’m getting tired of it. I don’t have a job due to disability issues. I have 20 hours a week of therapy. I have chores, animals to feed, doctors appointments, etc. <br><br>Friends and family could look at my schedule and see that a lot of my time is taken up with therapy. I get tired after most of them. I have to schedule stuff in between, and often it means getting stuff done between therapy hours. <br><br>I’m in school, but it is 100% online, so I don’t get the social component of conventional college. I always have to be the one who tries to initiate friendships. I always just seem to attract people who don’t try to make friends. <br><br>Lately, my friend group has fallen apart. It had already started to fall apart. I just lost the last piece of my friend group. It was my best friend. Now I’m left on my own. I’m starting to feel like I’m unimportant because I don’t really have anyone in my life who cares. I feel like people don’t prioritize me either. <br><br>I’m getting tired of the fact that I’m always the one who cares. I’m always the one who tries to be a loyal friend. I’m always the one who reaches out to check on someone. I’m starting to feel like no one really cares about me.