MGTOW saved me from crippling depression

I just wanted to share this as it may resonate with some others. <br><br>I have been through a lot in my life, I’m 24 now but I was not born male. I am trans, and I transitioned just before I was 18. I was born female and have lived most of my life as a female, it sucks. <br><br>I did not transition because I was gender confused. I was sexually abused as a child by my older siblings, and as I got older and went through puberty all the changes my body went through invoked intense flashbacks to the sexual abuse I suffered. I went through a lot of therapy but it didn’t help and I just wanted my body to stop reminding me of the trauma I went through and I didn’t want to be a woman. I also had a lot of dysphoria over my reproductive organs because I was raped as a child on multiple occasions and I couldn’t bear the thought of becoming pregnant. So I got them removed during my transition. <br><br>Anyway, before I found MGTOW I was hardcore in the red pill. I was so angry and hurt by what happened to me and I just hated women. I was angry at my sisters for the abuse, angry at my mother for not protecting me, angry at my father for abandoning us. I also was angry at my own body for being female. I just hated the idea of women. <br><br>I dated a few women here and there but I couldn’t overcome my hate. I couldn’t trust women because I just saw my abusers in their eyes. I couldn’t even look at women because I hated them. I was also angry at myself, angry at being a woman and angry that I couldn’t protect myself. <br><br>When I found MGTOW I was angry at first, it felt like they were attacking me for being a woman. It took me a while to get over myself, and actually listen to what they were saying. After that it all made sense to me, and I was like “I don’t have to hate women, I just have to protect myself from them”. I realized that I didn’t have to hate myself for being trans either. I am a man and I always have been, I was just born in an unsuitable body for who I am. <br><br>I stopped blaming women and started protecting myself. I stopped hating myself and started loving who I am for the first time in my life. I got off anti-depressants and started doing sports and taking care of my body and mind. I stopped blaming myself for the abuse and started blaming the abusers. I stopped protecting them and started protecting myself. I stopped caring about what others thought of me. Also, I stopped giving a fuck about women because they do not have anything I need or want. <br><br>I started embracing being male, and I honestly felt a massive weight lift off my shoulders. I stopped having flashbacks to my trauma when I looked at myself in the mirror because I stopped seeing a woman. I am finally at peace with my body and I can finally look at myself without wanting to scream and cry. <br><br>I am finally happy and I owe it all to MGTOW. I no longer have to live my life in crippling depression, I can finally live my life. I can finally do all the things I always wanted to do and stop punishing myself for something I did not do. <br><br>Thank you to everyone in the MGTOW community. Thank you so much.<br><br>Edit: Thank you all so much for the kind words. It means a lot to hear positive things, especially after my whole life I have been called a freak, a monster, etc. It’s nice to be acknowledged as a person rather than judged and insulted. Thank you all so much :)