Why I'm Better Off Alone

I'm a 25 year old guy and I've been in relationships with 7 different girls so far. I've been cheated on twice, I've been dumped twice, I ghosted one and she went psycho on me, I dumped one, my respective parents and friends hate four of them and I hate two of them. I've never had a breakup that was amicable or somehow mutual, except for maybe the girl I dumped. Since I was 18 years old, I've decided to focus on myself and improve myself first and foremost. When I got my first girlfriend at 20, I was in shape, I was well read, I had a good career in front of me and I was within a few months of graduating from university. The second I got my first girlfriend at 20, my parents, my friends and even my GF expected me to give up on all these things.<br><br>After three years, I've realised that every single relationship I've been in has been a mistake, because of the stress and lost time and lost energy in trying to make it work. Every single relationship was a mistake. I've spent 3 years of my life on other people when I could have spent that time on myself.<br><br>Over the last year, I've read more than I've read in the last 20 years. I've spent more time on my friends than I ever had in a relationship (my friends have always been far more important to me than any GF anyway). I've spent more time outdoors than I ever did and I've spent more time on personal hobbies than I ever had. I've been more productive in the last year than I have my entire life and I've started to see this world for what it is. <br><br>I've improving myself and bettering myself for almost 8 years now and I've never been happier. I've felt more emotions in the last year, good and bad and I've lived more in the last year that I have in the last 3 years. I've been more me in the last year than I ever had. I've never been freer, I've never been more confident, I've never been more healthy. I've never lived more in my entire life than I have in the last year. <br><br>I've spent 8 years of my life improving myself and I've finally felt everything I've always felt I've missed out on. I've done it all by myself, with a little bit of help from my friends and family, but it's all been for me. <br><br>I don't ever want to go back.