I paraded my bawdy when my husband was with other woman

Throwaway here. I (37F) am happily married for 3 years, my husband (35M) and I are very much in love, and we share the same values and never had any real problems. We also live in a different country than our home country, so our social circle is rather small. Unfortunately my husband is often working over hours and is out of the house a lot, and I am mostly alone, as I am not working outside of the house.<br><br>Up until one month ago I had no idea my husband was having an affair. To be honest I was blind sided. <br><br>I never had any real reason to suspect he was cheating, he didn't do anything weird, always answered all my questions, was always open to me, introduced me to his colleagues, friends... . And I believed him!!!.<br><br>One month ago I found myself in a very unpleasant situation, and I don't know how to deal with it. <br><br>So here it goes: I went to a local swimming pool with my friend, and we had a great time till the moment my husband and his lover showed up. I was so embarrassed and devastated that I didn't even know how to react. I started to cry, and my friend suggested that we go change and come back in our swimwear. <br><br>When we returned, I started to parade myself around the swimming pool to show my husband what he was going to miss. And I have to admit I enjoyed it, and it gave me courage I never knew I had in me. I also showed myself to his lover, who was older and heavier than me. <br><br>I am not sure how to feel about all of this. I am so hurt by his actions, but at the same time I felt empowered and recognized my own strength.