I’m a professional programmer. I haven’t written code in three years.

This is a weird topic, but it’s important to me. I’m having trouble because I’m a professional programmer, but I haven’t written code in three years. It’s the most frustrating thing to me because people used to be amazed at my abilities. I used to talk to people about coding, and their eyes would glaze over. I was just fluent in it. But now, if I were to look at code, I don’t know what I would think. <br><br>I’m not a beginner, but I don’t know what level I’m at. I don’t know how to get back into this field. I feel like I’ve been so out of it that I wouldn’t even remember the first thing about it. Therefore, I’m not a beginner, but I also don’t know where to start. I’m just absolutely flustered about it. I want to get back into it. <br><br>I went through very tough times a few years ago. Depression, mentally ill, and health problems. But I’m feeling better now. I’m doing better. I want to get back to what I used to do. I want to be able to authoritatively talk about code again. I feel so dumb that I don’t know where to start. <br><br>I feel like I’ve lost my passion. I don’t know how to get it back. It was so important to me to be able to code. It was like my secret power. I feel like I’ve lost that. I’m over 30 now, and I sometimes wonder if I’m too old to get back into it. I just feel so overwhelmed. I want to talk about this on some level.