I'm a self-destructive addict who can't get out of bed for weeks at a time. How would I attempt to approach women/make friends as a chronically depressed and severely socially phobic person?

I've tried online dating. I quickly discovered I was by far one of the ugliest people on those sites.<br><br>I'm horrible at talking to people. I have trouble keeping my head up, I get extremely nervous, I have a hard time listening to what the person is saying, I know they can hear my nervous breathing, I'm horrifically awkward and I can't even say more than a sentence or two at a time without embarrassing myself or passing out. I'm also terrified of talking to girls because I know they'll immediately think I'm disgusting.<br><br>I have no hobbies. I have no social circle. I have a serious problem with addiction. I can barely hold a job because I'm so lethargic and I'm so incredibly self-destructive. I have no real reason for a girl to be with me, I don't even have a reason for myself to be with "me".<br><br>My physical appearance is absolutely revolting. Rotting teeth, severely crooked teeth, I'm completely out of proportion, I have a lot of scars, my face looks deformed, I'm extremely skinny, my hair is thinning. I'm the type of person who everyone *has* to stare at because they can't help themselves.<br><br>What would be my best approach?