frens im sorry

ive been feeling reeaally numb lately. very anxious. thoughts have been racing, and im sleeping way too much and then feeling tired after i wake up. i havent had any energy to post. i have a severe lack of motivation. etc etc etc.<br><br>ive been feeling so numb, i have even forgot to eat. like, i seriously have no idea if i ate lunch or breakfast or anything. i dont know what time it is or how long i slept. i cant think much.<br><br>ive also been having some bad thoughts lately. im just worried that im going to go through a suicidal episode again like i did last year.<br><br>i havent talked to anyone about this in a long time, so i know how to talk to people about my feelings. i might be coming across as a burden right now, so i am sorry for that, but i just need someone to talk to. i dont want to burden a lot of people with this, so i am just posting it here right now for everyone to see.<br><br>i want to talk to frens about this, but i have no idea who. all i know is that i am afraid that if i dont tell anyone, its going to get worse, so i just want to talk to someone before this gets worse. i might post this on other subs, but i dont really know.<br><br>so yeah. thats it. i am done.<br><br>EDIT: im sorry guys. i literally just woke up and saw all of this. thank you so much for all the support. i appreciate everyone reaching out to me, and i feel a bit better now. theres a very long way to go for me, but i think now i can take a small step. thank you all. now, i wrote a message for a couple of people here, and thats all for now.