I heard lonely voices at the next table as I ate at a quiet restaurant. I felt like I was home.

That was the first ever time in my life I was in a restaurant by myself. <br><br>I had never done it before. The idea seemed to be at the begining as weird to me as the idea of eating by myself in the cinema or in the bus. <br><br>But I am twenty and in my life I felt more alone then lonely. <br><br>I have never been in a relationship, but I had been more or less in the most possible enviroments now. So I felt confident enough to do it. <br><br>I walked in a small restaurant in a small town and I told them "I am alone today." The woman asked me where do I have to sit. I told her "I don't mind. Wherever you want". <br><br>She put me alone by myself, far away from the other tables. <br><br>I felt weird for a little bit. I texted someone so that I could kill my weirdness. <br><br>Then I felt normal again. <br><br>It was a quiet restaurant and I heard people from every table next to me. Parents and their kids, friends, couples. <br><br>And then I realized I was alone. <br><br>"I just sit alone now in the restaurant! Great." I thought. <br><br>But a weird wave of happiness suddenly came over me. <br><br>Because for the first time in my life I felt I was at home. <br><br>"Wow... I can do whatever I want now... because I am at home!" I thought. <br><br>"I am alone at home" I thought and I got excited. I was super happy I was alone at home. I felt in peace. I was at home.<br><br>And then I heard these sounds: <br><br>A mom and her two boys behind me. <br><br>A father with his little daughter next to me. <br><br>Two men over me talking about politics. <br><br>A couple in their mid 30s at the begining of the restaurant who was as happy as I was. They also were alone because they had a date. They laughed, talked and joked. They also felt they were super alone at home. I am glad I felt I wasn't the only one. <br><br>It was a quiet restaurant, but I felt it loud because of all these voices. <br><br>It felt home. <br><br>I heard these voices of people who were also alone at home and I felt peaceful. <br><br>I never wanted for company so many in my life. I never wanted so much to be alone at home. <br><br>I walked alone in the streets, I swam alone in the ocean. I played alone in the park. I was alone at home at night.<br><br>But it was the first time I was alone at home with the others. <br><br>And I can't wait to go alone at home again.