My husband admitted he didn't expect anyone to want to fuck a 42 year old woman when he asked for open marriage

Initially, I wrote a very long post with our whole backstory but before posting it, I deleted the entire thing. It didn't really matter how we got here but here we are. He asked for open marriage after 20 years of happy marriage because he wasn't attracted to me anymore even though he still loved me. Maybe it was midlife crisis? but he was panicking about not have been with another woman his entire life. I left him and asked for divorce. The separation devastated us mentally and financially. My children suffered the most and started hating me for leaving and breaking their happy home. When we got back together, I agreed to open marriage but I didn't want to know details. Everything was great (according to him anyway). <br><br>Around new years, he switched roles and started questioning me about my dating life. Initially, I didn't want to tell him anything but his interrogation was getting annoying. I finally admitted to him I had dated two guys but nothing serious. I also confessed I had hooked up with someone I met at a party. He looked absolutely devastated. I was lost about what was going on. I though he would be happy that I was out there living my best life but instead, he looked like I had blind sided him with a brick. <br><br>He finally admitted he never expected any man to want me at my age. He thought I would maybe go on a few dates but come home every night. He said he had no idea I would be "hooking up" with strangers. I was so angry and in shock I didn't know what to say but later I thought about it. No, I am not 23 anymore and I don't look like I used to but I never thought of myself as a used up old woman. His confession ruined me.