I'm dying of a brain tumour. I don't want my husband to be lonely after I die.

I had been having problems with my balance and vision for two days and organising our home. My husband and I just turned 40 last October so we were old school people who believed in going to the doctor instead of Google. <br><br>The doctor told me to go to the ER. I ran into an old friend who was about to go to work there as a nurse. I told her what was happening. She said the doctor at the hospital would do a CT scan and she gave me the name of a neurologist. <br><br>I went to the hospital and they found a malignant tumour in my cerebellum. I had a biopsy and they found out it was primary brain cancer. I had surgery at Christmas time in December 2023 to remove the tumour. I am on chemo now. I had chemo during Christmas. I felt anxious at first and I didn't know what to do. <br><br>I went on Google and found a website for people with brain cancer. They said most people live from three to six months after diagnosis. Three months from December is March, so I have a few months to go. <br><br>I told my husband what was going on and that I wanted an open casket at my funeral. He was upset but he knows he won't change my mind. <br><br>I asked my ex-boyfriend from high school if he would go out with me after I die. He said yes and was excited to get a second chance. I told him I had a brain tumour and I didn't have a lot of time left. He said he still wants to date me. <br><br>We have been going out since early January. It's been a month. I haven't told my husband yet. I don't want to tell him until I die. My ex-boyfriend is going to my funeral. My husband will find out then. <br><br>I don't want my husband to be lonely. I want him to be happy.