PBIS: I am not as good as you think I am. What should I do?

I work with students with severe disabilities. I try my best with everything I do. I read books and I find as many resources as I can to help facilitate learning. I'm maxed out on PD hours and training. But teaching is not for me. I suck at it. I am very low on confidence. My principal says I am amazing, and parents say I am doing a great job, but I don't feel like it. I feel like there isn't much interest or learning going on. I feel like we don't accomplish much in the day. I try to always stay on task and do the next thing, and the students are in the right place at the right time. Oh, but I totally suck at making eye contact with my students and I feel like that makes me inadequate as a teacher. My students will either never be able to eye contact (neurologically impaired), or they will never see because of physical impairments, so it isn't too big of a deal. I feel so judged from within though.<br><br>I have about 150 pages of the new standards from the state that I am reading through and trying to analyze. I feel like I am creating a new lesson plan each day. But I know there has to be a better way. I am scattered and disorganized. I don't have time to put things away, but I know I can do better. I feel like I am drowning, but everyone seems to think I am swimming. <br><br>TLDR: I am not a strong teacher. I have low confidence. Everyone seems to think I am doing a great job, but I don't feel like it. What should I do to get better?