I don't want to live in Lithuania, I feel ashamed but there's nothing I can do, I'm not strong enough to help you

Yo, it's about 2 am in Lithuania, I don't have any damn money, just a stupid fucking phone that I sometimes use to join you. I barely have time for myself. I'm so ashamed to live here and won't do anything for you. I don't even have time to do proper work, but I don't tell you to kill yourself. You are stronger and you can hear it in your speech, I don't have such strength.