I am lonely, and this app is the only place I have to go.

I've never been the most socially outgoing person, but I have always been loyal and had a deep capacity to love. I feel like I've been on a recent decline in the past few months. <br><br>My isolation has been further compounded by a recent new job that I thought would bring some excitement and joy into my life. Unfortunately, it has been nothing but a pain in the neck from day one and I can't seem to catch a break, no matter how hard I try. <br><br>My friends from high school all moved away, and I really only keep in touch with one or two. I've tried to make new friends at my job, but now that I've started my new position I don't have much interaction with my coworkers anymore.<br><br>Most of the time, it feels like I'm too dumb to do anything and that my anxiety makes me a burden on the people I love. <br><br>I know I'm not alone in this feeling. I just needed to tell someone. I'm not sure where else to go, and I probably can't talk to anyone about this. I feel so broken and scared of this new future that I have in front of me, like I'm being squeezed to death by an invisible weight that pressures me to be perfect all the time. <br><br>I also know that there is probably very little anyone can say to make this any better, but I just can't help but feel that I'm a burden on the world, and a new burden on the shoulders of my husband. <br><br>I just wanted to say thank you to whoever reads this, thank you for being here.