I caught a temporary chemical high and Ive been chasing it ever since

Some of you might find this obscure but I think it’s worth mentioning. <br><br>I had a severe infection like 3.5 years ago, requiring hospitalization and IV antibiotics. I also had a fever of 103.5<br><br>Right before they admitted me, I had never felt so shitty. The movies don’t show you how bad it can be. But I was about to faint and I couldn’t walk and I had to be wheeled in this massive hospital bed into my private single room with my new roommate who had an infection himself. <br><br>I was so weak when they gave me the Bactrim IV. I couldn’t even lift my arm. But they gave me the meds, and 30 minutes later, I felt like a brand new man. It gave me the best high I’ve ever had. It was like feeling normal after being sick for a week, plus the elated feeling of ending a nasty illness mixed with winning the lottery. <br><br>I was so excited (and possibly high on meds) that I was lifted up and walking around my room and could even do a few jumping jacks. <br><br>So Ive thought about it every time I got sick, thinking I could capture that feeling again. <br><br>Well, I got that chance 3 months ago when I got covid. I was really sick and had a fever for 3 days. <br><br>I called my primary and I thought I had covid. He said “I’m not going to test for it, that’s all we are treating right now anyways”. I was like “Okay, I want to feel better now.” He said he was going to give me Bactrim like he did before, but in the form of liquid antibiotics that I could drink. <br><br>I chugged the meds, and waited for that magic to happen. I waited the 30 minutes I had to wait last time, and nothing. I go 4 more hours and feel nothing. I was getting sicker and sicker. I was very disappointed. I thought maybe it was just psychological, I wanted to feel good so I could psych myself out. I tried walking around, jumping up and down. Nothing. <br><br>I want to feel that feeling again. What I’m sure was just a strong placebo effect did nothing for me. <br><br>I’m not sick again so maybe next time (and please not covid).