It’s embarrassing to speak

Hello, this is my first post.<br><br>I am Ukrainian, and I am 18 years old. Now my level of English is B2. I am studying at university now. In my country, English is very popular. Many people there are aware of the benefits of English and are studying it. In my university, there are also many people studying English. Some of them have higher level of English and some have lower.<br>In my group there are no English learners, but there are a few people who know English at B2 level like me. But even though we have the same level of English, I was embarrassed to speak English. In my head, I thought of the following words.<br>I am afraid that I will say something wrong, and I will be laughed at.<br>I am afraid that I might use English incorrectly.<br>I am afraid of pronouncing a word incorrectly.<br>I am afraid that my voice is too quiet and nobody can hear me.<br>I am afraid that I will say something wrong and my friends will think I am silly.<br><br>That was my thought before I came to study in another country. Now I am living in Turkey. I am not sure how many English learners are in Turkey, but I think it is a smaller number than in Ukraine. But at my university, there are a few English learners, and one of them is from the UK. (Fortunately, he is very kind and helpful, he helped me a lot when I was in trouble.) In general, my university has many international students from different countries. So many people here speak English, but many of them are not good at English. So maybe nobody here laughs at me when I speak English. And also my friends in Ukraine speak English, but not as many as here, and their English is much worse than the people I meet here. But I am still afraid to speak English.<br><br>Now I am in trouble. I am trying to speak English in the shortest sentences so that it is faster and I don’t have to speak for a long time. I also don’t speak English to people who I don’t know well. I am afraid to talk to some people about something, because I am afraid to make a mistake. I get embarrassed when I make such mistakes. So I don’t like speaking English at all. I want to improve my English, but I don’t want to talk to people. So I am just watching English videos or different TV shows in English for improving my English. But my English doesn’t improve. I think that if I practice speaking English, it will be better. But it all depends on the fact that I already have someone to speak with. But I have nobody to speak with now. Also I have tried to speak with native speakers on the app, but it was very embarrassing and I couldn’t even continue the conversation for more than a few seconds.<br><br>So please, give me any advice about my problem. How can I improve my English? How can I overcome the embarrassment of speaking?<br><br>P.S. Sorry for mistakes if I said anything wrong.