After watching a video called "I wouldn't have another kid even if I won the lottery" I'm considering being a single mom by choice

A bit more context here: I'm fairly well off financially (single mom of a pet cat who's quite expensive to keep alive due to a very expensive disease he has). I'm really confident in my ability to have a kid on my own and I'm even more confident that I'm not going to have another kid if I did have a kid on my own.<br><br>I'm just conflicted because I'm childfree, but part of me thinks I could be a mom if I just remove the "second kid" aspect from the picture. I've always been really confident in my decision of not wanting kids. I've always valued my freedom and solo accomplishments. I've always been against the "mom's boy" stereotype and didn't want my kid to grow up without their parents. I've always been very confident that I'm making the right decision.<br><br>But now I'm a bit conflicted. I actually don't want a kid. I'm still pretty sure of this. I don't want to share this beautiful home I built with someone else. I don't want to have any kind of relationship with another person. I don't want to sacrifice this life I've built. But I'm not sure if I want to die alone, either.