My mom is the reason I'm an incel

I'm 21 and never had a girlfriend, never had sex, I'm overweight and have no social life, I've always been depressed.<br><br>I'm a victim of the grooming of my own mother.<br><br>I come from a broken home. My parents divorced when I was 3 years old and my mom got remarried when I was 5. She spent most of her time with my stepfather, leaving my little sister and me alone. My stepfather was the one who took us to school, made food, changed our shirts, bathed us and even made us shower.<br><br>I was a very curious boy and when I was 6 years old, my mom would dress me up as a girl, put my hair in a ponytail and call me "Gabrielle, my little princess." My sister hated it when my mom did it, so I did it as well out of habit. I threw tantrums, I peed my pants, but I never realized the damage that my mother's words had done to me.<br><br>On my 7th birthday, my mom threw me a "princess" themed party, which made me hate myself even more. I don't know what my mom's aim was, but she was very demanding about my appearance and how I should behave. I felt like a monster when my sister came home from school and I always saw her as my "rival". I didn't want to play with dolls and she didn't want to play with the car toys.<br><br>One day, after I was 12 years old, I was forced to live with my father. I went to live with my father in another city and I never saw my mother again. I started to lose weight, my sister helps me a lot with my depression and we both go to therapy. Despite this, I still haven't overcome my depression.