I'm supposed to go on vacation. Now I'm suddenly not invited.

I just received an email from my former friend after a year plus of her ignoring me. <br><br>I met her through my brother in the late 80's. We roomed together at a rental house in college. <br><br>She married in 1991 and I never saw her or heard from her again. <br><br>But in about 2001 she and her husband did the big divorce. She got back in touch with me. <br><br>He's a lawyer and she's a dentist, so she's got money. She started insisting that I go on vacation with her several times per year. <br><br>Every 2 months or so.<br><br>I hate to travel. I like to stay home. But I go anyway. Maybe if I escape my reality long enough, I won't hate my life so much and won't be so disappointed in myself. <br><br>I've spent so much money in order to go with her. <br><br>I've started a new business. I needed to make up the money. I can't travel right now. I told her that I couldn't come with her and that I wouldn't be able to make it for a long time. I needed to make up the money.<br><br>She said that I was ruining her life. Then I didn't hear from her for a long time. Maybe more than a year.<br><br>She emailed to ask me if I had any friends. I don't. I was born an Aspie. In those days, we were called "retarded". It was extremely difficult for me to interact with people my own age and I was always bullied and belittled. I have very few friends. They're all much, much older than me. <br><br>She said that she had no friends. <br><br>I said that I didn't. That I wasn't good with people. I always had a hard time getting along with my own age group. In fact, I had always been rejected by my own age group. <br><br>She said that I was "exotic" and that I knew a lot. Then she called me and told me that she missed me and asked if I could come to go on vacation with her. I said that she was rude and that she didn't respect me. She said that I was being petty. I told her that I was a person, not a piece of s**t that she could step on. I specifically told her that I couldn't go back on vacation until I made up the money that I had spent going with her. <br><br>Now I get an email saying that her and her new male friend are going away for a week. I'm not invited. It's a 2 bedroom cabin. They could invite me. Maybe they will invite another woman/girl friend. <br><br>I can't believe that I wasted tens of thousands of dollars over the years to be rejected like this. <br><br>I'm so sick of thinking that I'm a human being, only for someone to remind me that I'm nothing but s**t. <br><br>I hate people.