My husband thinks he surprised me with a baby but he didn't

Im 32 years old. I have been married to my husband for 5 years and we have two boys. One is 4 and one is 3. We both have good jobs, although my job is more stressful than his, and we have enough money to afford our children. We live in a pretty big house for a family of 4. But our youngest is considered a miracle baby as he was a surprise. His birth was also complicated and he was born prematurely. This caused a lot of stress in 2022, as my husband was also sick with covid for a few weeks and I had some health issues. We also had a lot of problems with our oldest, as he required a lot of our time during the first months of our youngest. Our youngest was also colicky and is now considered a "fussy" baby. We both have not had a lot of sleep and our youngest is still waking up at night. So, it is a lot with managing two children and working a lot of hours.<br><br>Both of us have always wanted three children. Unfortunetely, I have problems with reproducing. Both of our boys were concived with a lot of effort. My husband has a low sperm count and I suffer from endometriosis. We have to plan for months, with me getting on a strict diet and stop smoking to be able to conceive. It took us years to conceive our first and a lot of effort for our second. This is why our second was a surprise. It was a miracle. <br><br>But I have never felt so tired. And although we both wanted a third, I am glad to have a little time. After our youngest turns 1, we plan on starting to conceive again. But I have a feeling that this will take longer now because I am 32 and my husband is 35. The chances of us conceiving without a lot of effort will be lower. <br><br>Because of the stress of 2022, I decided to go on the pill for 3 or 4 months. It helps with my cramps and I am better in my mental state. But....I forgot to take one when we were on holidays. We had sex three times while I forgot to take the pill and my husband came inside each time. It was stupid on my part. I should have taken it and I should have reminded myself about it. But I was stressed. Now we have been home for a week and I have not gotten my period. I took a pregnancy test and it was positive. I am scared and I do not know how we are going to manage. I know that I am stupid and I should have taken the pill. So I am scared to tell my husband because he is stressed out too and this will not help with his stress. So, I will have to lie to him and tell him it is a surprise like last time.