I wish I could let go of my ego

Hey. A week ago I had a talk with a girl that I had a crush on. I had no idea how she felt about me, so I just told her about my feelings and said that I hope she feels the same. She got uncomfortable and said she could never see me in that way and that I am not her type, but we can still be friends?<br><br>My first reaction was “yeah, no problem, whatever” but that answer was more meant to keep her comfortable while I myself sank into the pit of depression.<br><br>I have always had a hard time dealing with girls, I have never had a gf or a real friend, and this is the first time someone actually talked to me, and said no.<br><br>It’s been a week since then and I’m trying to fight my ego and push myself to text her, to see if she is actually willing to be friends, but I couldn’t. I’m afraid she will say no and will never text me again.<br><br>Why can’t I just let go of my ego and text her?! I think we could be friends and I don’t want to lose the only person that talked to me during my whole high-school years.