I miss the way things used to be

I miss receiving phone calls back in the day from random people just to talk about nothing. This one best friend, I was in 4th grade, and this guy would call me and just talk about his day about nothing and just random things. I would do the same. He would always call me after dinner and we would always talk about what we were eating. I miss those days where I wasn't a loser. I feel like I've become a illusion to myself and I pretend that life is normal. That I'm not in reality. I wish I had people to talk to because I'm so sick and tired of being alone all the time and living in my own fantasy world.