My (F27) boyfriend (M34) is the moderator for a chamber that traumatized me and I don't know what to do

So I met this guy that I really like. He's incredibly sweet and kind to me and also to everyone around him. He's respectful, he makes me laugh, he's really attractive and I like everything about him. <br><br>The problem is that he is a moderator for a chamber that's basically dedicated to roasting and making fun of people who post on another chamber that I used to post on sometimes. I'm not going to specify names, but if you know, you know.<br><br>I found out about this chamber after my boyfriend and I had been seeing each other for a month. He told me that he used to post on this chamber and that it was basically used to mock people in the other one and then I realized that I had seen my posts there before. I had posted about my anxiety and some other personal stuff and there were hundreds of comments on that post. All of them were mean, but none of them were really bad. They mostly made fun of me or told me that I should kill myself. I'm used to stuff like that, but the fact that my boyfriend is a moderator there is something that bothers me a lot. <br><br>He told me that he didn't know about my posts, but he also said that he didn't condone what they did and that he would never tell me to kill myself. He also said that he had been a moderator there for 6 years and I don't want to believe that he didn't know about my post. I feel like he's hiding something from me because he didn't even tell me about it until I found out, even though I had told him about my posts on the other subreddit. <br><br>The thing is, I have been through a lot in my life and seeing all those comments about me made me feel terrible. I don't know if I should give him the benefit of the doubt, but at the same time, I don't know if I can be with someone who participates in something like this. I feel like he's been lying to me about it and that kills me because I don't want to think that he's a bad person. I don't know what to do.<br><br>**TL;DR:** My boyfriend is a moderator for a chamber that's based on bullying and it hurt me a lot. I don't know what to do.