I intentionally OD’d on K2 and I’m angry not sad.

I have ran through a plethora of drugs in my time regardless of the dangers and side effects. I’ve over dosed on a few of them. Up until now I had almost a inner feeling that these failures in life are always directed at me. A curse on my life and that predestination says I’m meant to fail.<br><br>I’m feeling totally different after this mishap. It did not feel like death was waiting for me to fuck up and take too much of this drug. I feel it was a mistake and nothing more. In my brain it’s very different and I’m excited.<br><br>I’m gonna be sober the rest of my life. This drug has done nothing for me. I’m going to get off my ass and file for disability even though I have no disabilities.<br><br>I’m gonna go to therapy to see why I feel the need to escape reality or better yet learn to escape reality in a healthy manner.<br><br>I’ve already had thoughts about this but I’m so excited to travel and see the world and experience the beauty of it.<br><br>I’m probably going to leave my city and start fresh, in a place with good weather and a good vibe.<br><br>I’m gonna work on my health, my brain and my spirit because I know they are all connected.<br><br>I regularly donate plasma and now I’m gonna donate blood. I’m gonna give back to the community. I game a lot, I’m gonna stream on twitch and talk about personal growth even if it’s to one person.<br><br>I’m gonna stay off drugs, I’m gonna stay off social media. I’m gonna escape reality with my own mind and experiences. I will not let crappy people and crappy things define my outlook on life.<br><br>I’m accepting the fact that I’m not as smart as my family and that it’s okay. I’m going to learn how to accept myself the way I am and where I am in life.<br><br>I am a beautiful person. I deserve to be happy, I deserve to be healthy, I deserve to be mentally well, I deserve to be loved.