I can't sleep anymore

For the last 2 weeks its been getting worse. I do fine for a few days, but I wasn't feeling tired before bed and nowadays I feel tired in a way I have never felt before. I was lying in bed and I couldn't even stand anymore, I felt extremely tired as I write this. *I can't sleep* <br><br>I'm ceasing therapy because my therapist feels like my enemy and also because I feel like I'm wasting my time, I'm not being cured and I'm feeling worse than before. I'm eating a lot and I'm disgusting myself. I can't do anything to keep my mind away from anything. I get lonely and I'm feeling the need to complete something but I don't want to do anything. <br><br>I need to get attention from anyone, I don't care. I want to talk to someone, anyone. I need to stop this for once. I'm not being cured I don't know what to do. When I'm looking in the mirror I want to beat myself for a long time, I hate myself, I want to die and I don't know what to do. I don't have anyone to talk and I feel so lonely. I want to be cured, I don't want to feel this way anymore. It's the worst feeling in the world. I feel sick and I'm really struggling with depression.