I fucking hate puberty

I don’t know how I feel. I hate it so much. I got my period 2 months ago. It was my first and it hasn’t come again. I’m having cramps every damn hour. I’m so tired all the time. My face is disgusting. I’m fat. I’m sweating. My moods all over the place. Even if I don’t feel fat my gut is so bloated. I can’t even do anything. I have to be taken care of. I’m a teenager and I have to be watched because my period cramps are so bad. I don’t want to leave my room. I just want to get it over with. I don’t want to be a teenager.