It’s hard to make friends

My name is Ebonie, (pronounced ebony) and I’m a 34 years old and I’m a 5’8 240 pounds. I’m not my weight, however I’m trying to lose weight. I’m not a gym rat, but I’m working on it. I don’t make friends easily and the friends I do have they aren’t really around. I’m in college and working full time. I feel lonely and like I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’ve never had a boyfriend or dated. I don’t go out a lot. I was told at a young age if I lose weight more people will like me. That people don’t like me because I’m big. That I’m big therefore I'm lazy. I work hard, but I just don’t know what to do about being lonely.<br><br>Edit: I just want to say thank you for all the kind words and the DMs I’ve been receiving. I’ve never been called beautiful or pretty before until now. I appreciate all of the kind words.