I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE.

So I'm in my late 30's. Divorced with only weekend every other week privilege to see my daughter. I'm overweight, smoking weed daily, single, in debt. I've helped lift so many people up with zero results on their part to try and make the effort to care for their own life. I feel like I'm drowning in my own blood. I literally just cleaned out my room and this is the only thing I can think of doing to make it feel like I'm actually doing something about my life. If I don't leave Texas I'll end up killing myself.