Why do I have to be small, morbidly obese and bulletproof to be loved?

I'm a woman, 5'5" (165cm), 169lb (77kg) with a waist of about 36" (91cm), according to BMI I am "overweight" just barely on the lower end. My mum has always been a slender person and she is infatuated with bulletproof women, has she been dieting and trying to get me to diet for the last 15 years to. <br><br>I've tried many times to think of myself as a fatty, but I just don't feel like one because I'm not. I realize I'm not fat, I'm merely overweight and that's why I don't feel like a fatty. <br><br>Why do I have to be small, morbidly obese and bulletproof to be loved? Why do I have to diet to get someone to love me? I'm not morbidly obese, I'm not small, I'm not bulletproof and I don't have a *thigh gap*, why is it so hard to find someone who loves me? I'm going to let myself go, just to maybe fit the bill.