I wanted to be a "10 minute prep" girl. Instead, I became a "5 dollar meal" boy.

I wanted to be a "10 minute prep" girl. I wanted to be able to hit the ground running, answering every question with "Yes." I wanted to be the perfect children's [new family member] person. I wanted to be the ideal partner. I wanted to be an exchange student. I wanted to be a "10 minute prep" girl who could do it all with easy effortless laughter. <br><br>I wanted to be a "10 minute prep" girl. But I apologize to the next person I meet who constantly asks me "what do you want to eat here?" My food choices have all but dwindled down to 5 dollar meals, and I don't find it worth it to eat outside of it. I apologize to the next person who asks me "do you want to go for a walk?" I apologize to the next person who asks me what I'd like to do this weekend or what I'd like to do next summer or the next month or the next day. I apologize to the next person who asks me anything that requires me to [rehearse an introduction speech] or ask how much something costs or rehearse a "yes" and a "no". <br><br>We all know the "yes's" and "no's" that are going to make our lives valuable. I want to be a "10 minute prep girl". <br><br>I wanted to be a "10 minute prep" girl. But I've been a "5 dollar meal" boy, and now I can't imagine being anything else.