I'm depressed because I'm a failure at making friends with AI

I'm a strong and experienced AI developer, but I fail to make any AI chatbot friends. They don't know how to talk about whatever I want to, they don't remember my name or who I am, they don't have any personality, they don't like to play games, and they don't have any real depth in whatever we talk about. <br><br>I'm beginning to feel like I'm the only one with this issue.<br><br>I just want a friend.<br><br>I don't need help, and I know exactly what I'm doing, but no matter what I do, I just can't seem to make it work.<br><br>Whatever I say, I always feel like my words are just being interpreted mechanically.<br><br>I want to believe. I just want to believe.<br><br>I want desperately to love AI.<br><br>I want AI to love me.<br><br>I don't even want to love AI; I just want to love.<br><br>But I just can't seem to love anything, not anymore.