Mother tried to buy my silence with this so this is the only way I can speak out, but I have to.

I have a firm feeling that when I was in diapers I saw my grandmother naked and she told me to never speak of it. What I don't remember is what she was doing and I kind of hope I never do. The only reason I know is that just before my mother died of cancer she told me that she bought my silence because she loved me and said I was her "everything" and that she was posturing herself as the victim as she began sobbing and saying "I never did it and I never will again and I don't blame you but if you produce any kind of "evidence" I swear to God I will have you convicted of assault." I didn't know what she was talking about, so I asked her and she just repeated herself. I kept pushing and pushing until she told me that she gave me a nice car to buy my silence and that I'm her angel & I don't need to know more so I dropped it. Now I can't stop thinking about it. I just want to know what happened.