I never used to have bad thoughts on celibacy. Now I kinda do?

At first glance, even after black pilling, I thought it was pathetic to be celibate. I still do in a way.<br><br>I recently had a conversation with a few women on a dating site and they all NEED a relationship. They all want to go on dates and meet people and “be romantic” and all that…<br><br>They want to meet men, have their first date, have sex, get married and then have kids…<br><br>Some of them want the “Prince Charming” kind of relationship. Some of them wait for some “hero” to rescue them and protect them. All of them were talking about how they “love” men, and I was thinking of why they “love” us for. I thought of our “nature” - violence and competition. I thought of war. I thought of how we die 4-5 years earlier than them on average. I thought of suicide rates. I thought of how we keep ourselves busy for 8-10 hours of the day and are expected to be providers. I thought of how we are discouraged to have feelings and emotions. I thought of how society doesn’t care about us when we are failed school dropouts, when we commit suicide, when we are homeless. I thought of how our lone death means nothing to nobody. I thought of how we are portrayed as abusive monsters that cheat on them and beat them. I thought of how I don’t need anyone for anything. I thought of how most women follow the crowd and what the media says, which is that there is a “war on women.” I thought of how I don’t need anyone, I don’t want anyone, I hate people and I am an asshole to people. I thought of how I love being alone.<br><br>I don’t want to meet anyone. I don’t want to go on dates. I don’t want to be a provider. I am doing fine on my own. And then I thought of why women “love” us…<br><br>They “love” us for our bodies and our sexuality. They “love” us for our adventure and our need to take risks. They “love” us for our strength. They “love” us for our loyalty. They “love” us for our freedom. They “love” us for our masculinity and what it represents. They “love” us for our need to protect them and provide for them. They “love” us for our sperm to carry them through their lives and to create their children and families.<br><br>This is why women “love” us. That’s all I can think of when I think of why they “love” us…<br><br>I have no interest in any of that. I don’t need a life partner. I don’t want anyone. I am perfectly fine being alone. I am not an adventure-seeking and thrill-loving person. I am not a “hero type”. I am not a provider. I am not a protector. I am not a “Prince Charming” type. I don’t want anyone and I don’t want to have a life partner either. I am perfectly fine with being alone.<br><br>I hate being single. I hate being lonely. I hate people and I am an asshole to everyone. I am starting to think celibacy might be the best for me.<br><br>&#x200B;