she wanted to stay in bed with me

My sister was the first person to hug me. I remember being swaddled and she came into the room with our mother and hugged me. My mother told me this story and I felt so warm and fuzzy inside. I loved my sister, she was like my best friend or something but I never thought of her like that. I never even considered it. I mean I was 15 and she was 13. But when we were alone in the car, she would put her hand on my knee or shoulder just like an older brother and sister. But I never touched her like that. I never thought of that. I never remember doing that before. I mean I hugged her all the time and kissed her on the forehead.<br><br>But I can't explain it. One night I was like "oh yeah I'm gonna stay in bed with my sister tonight." It just felt right. I didn't think about it. I just did it. It was fine. It was so nice. But the second night after that I don't know somehow we fooled around a little. I can't even explain how it happened. She just started kissing my neck and I started kissing hers. Touched some boobies. She made me feel so good and I didn't know how to react to it. But it felt so good.<br><br>I remember the first time I came I came in my boxers and I didn't even know what was happening. I was scared but she just kept kissing me and telling me how much she loved me. But the second time I came it was inside of her. She was so wet down there and I didn't know what was going on. We both didn't know what we were doing but we figured it out. We did a lot of things that day and she came inside of me too. I loved it. I felt so good. But in the morning I was so confused and embarrassed. I got dressed and ran out of there and when she came in the kitchen I ignored her.<br><br>She said "what, are you mad at me?" and I was like uh no and she came and hugged me and was like "I love you" and I said I love you too. I was so confused. I felt so bad. But in the night we went back to the room and did some more stuff. Since then we've been doing that for years.<br><br>I love my sister. I don't care if it's wrong. I don't care if she's my sister. I love her.<br><br>EDIT: Holy crap this blew up. I don't even know what to do. I'm gonna read all the comments though. Thank you so much to everyone who offered their support and solidarity. It means so much to me. I am reading every comment.<br><br>Thank you to those of you who shared your own stories. It's so nice to know I'm not alone. I feel like I have a whole community of people who understand me here. I feel so happy and supported. I want to hug everyone and tell them I love them. Thank you all so much.<br><br>And to those of you who have been triggered by this or have had bad experiences with incest, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that happened to you. That must have been so hard. I can't imagine what that would be like. I'm sorry for any pain or sadness I may have caused you.<br><br>Thank you all from the bottom of my heart.