Graduating with 3.9 GPA but I still feel like I’m going to get fucked

Recently took a huge hit to my GPA from failing an important CS course but I'm going to retake it and graduate with a 3.9 GPA. Still, I feel hopeless. Like I want to drop out and I just don’t care about getting my CS degree anymore. I’m having trouble sleeping and I have a lot of anxiety. Personal things in my life are bad and I don’t know what the fuck to do. I’m 21. I don’t know what to do. I dropped out of high school but I got my shit together. I feel like I’m losing my grip. I’m going to be 22 in a month but still in school. I just feel hopeless. A lot of my friends are more than halfway done with their masters. I feel like I’m wasting my time. For the past year, I feel like I’ve been just wasted. Not some super party person who steals calculators and dances on tables but just a ghost of an existence shooting alive and going through the motions. <br><br>I think I’ve changed but I don’t know. I haven’t really done anything for a long time. But at least I won’t end up like my brother. A degree is better than jail, I guess.