Question about superstitions in Hinduism

I’m Hindu, have always been but I’ve a couple of questions about some superstitions which I really don’t like and don’t want to follow them but my family keeps forcing me to follow them. <br><br>1. Being on my period and entering the kitchen. I know most of you might have heard about this superstition we Indian women are not allowed to enter the kitchen all through our period. Why? Like, I understand if I’m considered impure they just don’t want me to touch sacred things which is fine but no kitchen when everyone from the family, including the very person cooking is actually touching the food and utensils and what not. How am I impure and they are not? My family says it’s because the food I cook might be impure. I mean for fucks sake I take a shower everyday, I am not impure. I feel like the person cooking might be doing it with less attention and care because he’s cooking for the family and not for himself so chances of food getting impure are anyway higher but it’s okay because it’s him and not me. Also, what if the person cooking is sick? Do we know about it? I mean I didn’t know I had PCOS and no one told me when I got my periods for the first time but when I was sick the food I cooked was okay but a sick man can cook and it’s okay. <br><br>I know a lot of women who don’t even let their daughters cook during their periods where they themselves also cook. I find this pointless and the reason of food getting impure is not valid. <br><br>2. Not allowing women to enter any sacred place because of periods. I don’t understand why I need to wait for X period to finish and then I can pray to Lord. Is it because my period blood is impure? Is my period blood impure because it’s blood and blood is impure? Good god, how many surgeries have been done by doctors who are not God but men and women and almost every other day they do surgeries so are they impure because of the blood on their hands everyday? <br><br>How is my period blood impure but blood coming out of a man who just got injured is not impure? <br><br>If I can fuck, fuck while I’m on my period, why can’t I pray on my period? Why is it a sin? I don’t get it. <br><br>I’m completely okay with the idea of not touching any sacred thing on my period because trust me, I don’t want to touch anything on my period and I don’t want to go out so yeah sure. But I want to pray to God, because I feel like I deserve to seek his blessings. I mean you have to respect God but everyone including your family members disrespect you when you’re on your period. You can’t eat first, you have to eat last. Everyone eats and once everyone is done eating, you eat. You can’t sleep with anyone, you sleep on the ground or fuck, some people even don’t let you come in the house and make you sleep in some outhouse. Everyone can get on the bed but you have to sleep on the floor. <br><br>What, the fuck, is this? Especially when I’m already in so much pain. The pain might not be as much as labour but it’s still kinda painful and crampy. All I wanna do is sleep on the bed and eat first. I don’t wanna eat last. That’s not only insulting because I eat food prepared by your hands but because I have to eat cold food. I’m already in pain and I have to eat cold, half rotten last night’s food and you want me to not even pray? Fuck you and your fucking God if he doesn’t like me praying to him. I’m already in pain and I’m not allowed to enter the kitchen where all the food is, I’m already not allowed to sleep in the bed, I’m already not allowed to eat with the rest of the family because I’m impure, and I’m not allowed to pray? I mean I’d understand if I’m a killer and God doesn’t want me to pray to him but that’s not it. I’m just a normal woman with periods and I don’t want to kill anyone but I do want to kill the person who made this rule and I think God can understand that I’m not a killer. <br><br>I don’t want to follow these things but my family keeps forcing me to follow them but I really don’t want to follow them. I want to break all these superstitions and if my family is not happy with it, fuck them. Audio format recommended.