I am dying of AIDS.

I am a 44 year old male. I am dying of AIDS. I contracted the disease from my then wife. At the time I was young and dumb and trusted her completely. She had been with someone else, and she knew she was infected. She was so afraid to tell me that she just kept it from me, and even lied to me about it. She knew I was also sleeping with other people, so I'm sure she felt justified. I am dying now. It has progressed to stage 4 disease. At this point, nothing can be done. I was diagnosed 3 years ago, and now I am literally dying. I am writing this from my bed, in my death room. I am not long for this world, and it is just a matter of time. I am comforted knowing that she was given the same diagnosis several years ago, and I am sure she is also dying. She killed me, and I will never forgive her. <br><br>EDIT - First, I want to thank everyone for the kind words, advice, and well wishes. I am overwhelmed by the response, and I am very grateful. I am sorry if I did not respond to your comment. Please know that I appreciate it very much. Second, I do receive treatment. I am under medical care and am receiving the best treatment available. I realize some people have lived with the disease for 20+ years. Unfortunately my diagnosis was not made until it had progressed to stage 4. I contracted the disease while in my 20's, and was diagnosed just 3 years ago. By the time of my diagnosis it was too late, and the damage was done. Third, I am comforted in knowing I will soon be with the Lord, and that He has forgiven me of all my sins. I do not fear death. I am at peace. Thank you all again.