A First Hand Account (NSFW)

There is still so much I don’t know about yourself but I do know one thing that you have to do is read this. <br><br>Did you know that I once was so desperate for a drink that I literally licked a Johnny Walker bottle that was literally covered in dust at the back of a liquor store? I spent the entire night in that liquor store. This happened at 19, not 16. At 16, I was sleeping in parks. I was in a very dark time. <br><br>I know I’ve been through trauma; you don’t talk to me like I don’t know what trauma is. <br><br>What you did was so fucking traumatic for me. I’ve never been more terrified in my entire life. Don’t talk to me like you don’t know that. You know that. <br><br>I’ve spent most of my life running away from what happened to me. I’ve spent most of my life sleeping with random men because I don’t want to love, because I don’t want to be hurt again. <br><br>I was so open with you about who I am, about what I’ve been through. I trusted you with my most inner secrets, and I told you not to hurt me. I warned you what would happen if you hurt me. I literally told you that I would kill myself if you hurt me. <br><br>I didn’t just break up with you. I broke up with every man that hurt me. I broke up with my father, I broke up with every man that touched me, every man that made me cry. I’m done. <br><br>I’m done being pushed around and treated like a piece of meat. I’m done. You made me realize I’m done. I’m not the damsel in distress. I’m not going to be the girl you can take advantage of, that you can hurt. <br><br>Because I’m not a girl. I’m a woman. <br><br>I’m a woman and I will fight back with every breath in my body. I will fight for myself. I will fight for other women to make sure nobody ever has to go through what I did. <br><br>And if you think that your actions won’t have consequences, you are very mistaken. <br><br>I understand you didn’t mean to hurt me. But your ignorance won’t save you from what comes next. You will learn.<br><br>You have hurt me. You have hurt me beyond repair. You have hurt me so much that I don’t even know who I am anymore. But you did me a favour. You helped me see things for what they are. You woke me up. <br><br>I’m not your damsel in distress to save. I’m not your property to own. I’m not something you can hurt and then try to fix. I’m not yours. <br><br>I’m mine. <br><br>And if you think you can hurt me without consequences you are wrong. <br><br>Don’t you ever try to touch me again.