I’m a doctor and I’m having trouble being okay with people dying

I (26f) am a resident physician in the united states. I worry that I’m going crazy. I can’t be okay with people dying like this. Old people, young people, sick people, people who had a good shot of recovery, people who we (my staff) mismanage and who die prematurely as a result. I just can’t stop thinking that we should be doing everything in our power to save every person. I feel guilty even if I’m taking a lunch because there’s someone struggling to breathe that I could be checking on. <br><br>I feel guilty even with the people who die from things we can’t save; like stroke or cardiac arrest or brain injury. I feel that I personally failed them. I replay their face and story in my mind and wonder if there’s anything I could’ve done. Any test or medication. Any decision I could’ve made that would’ve changed the outcome.<br><br>I’m just having trouble accepting that death is part of life and I can’t help but feel that my actions, or lack thereof, can save every person. I’m feeling guilty and burnt out. I’m having trouble being present in my daily life at home and constantly miss work because I’m worried about what I could be doing better. <br><br>Is this normal? Why can’t I be okay with people dying when everyone around me is? I feel like I’m going crazy.