It's ok to hate, and it's ok to be sad.

I was a former communist, as I'm sure many of you were/are too. I was recruited into that ideology as I was poor and my life sucked, with a large amount of further indoctrination by the Google Play store and other platforms pushing me their content. As I've said I'm not that kind of person anymore.<br><br>I was reminded of my past in the counter sub, where a commentor thanked me for being so calm and reasonable in the face of the views I disagree with, as I don't get angry or upset by them. I'd like to have a little chat about this, as I think it may be relevant to you all as much as it was to me.<br><br>It's ok to hate. It's ok to be angry. If you're in a bad situation, it's ok to acknowledge that you're in a bad situation. I often found myself getting downvoted because I was facing a situation where I was actually happy, or I had made a comment that I didn't actually hate communists/communism. I was repeatedly told that I should feel bad, and that it's not ok to be angry about my personal situation. I was told that communism would change my situation, and that it's not my fault because I'm a victim.<br><br>I didn't like this, I didn't enjoy it. I don't like this about counter cults and hate subs too. I just don't like to use them as a way to cope with the trauma of my past. <br><br>A lot of people in this sub are in the situation that I was. You don't have to be happy about your past as a communist. You don't have to be the person that your abuse taught you to be. You don't have to go through life pretending that everything is ok, and that everything is fine. Communism and other cults have been bad for you, and it's ok to express that.<br><br>You are allowed to feel the way you feel, and no one should tell you otherwise. I'm not telling you to stay angry forever, but to acknowledge that a bad situation *is* a bad situation. Don't discourage yourself from healing and moving on because someone on a website or forum has told you that you're not allowed to be upset.<br><br>You can be angry, you can be scared, you can enjoy your life. There is no one mould for how you should behave. You're not one of the ones that are angry that they aren't allowed to be angry. You're not one of the ones that are so scared of hurting communists that they hurt themselves instead. You can be you, and it's ok.