I am a soon to be mom of twins and I'm worried that I won't be able to go back to work at all.

I'm 5 months pregnant, and I am expecting twins. I am currently in a research position, and I am really happy in it. I used to work in a lab on campus here, then our lab got shut down due to COVID and I was reassigned to a research position, with a lot more responsibilities. I love it, and I put a lot of effort into it. That being said, I have also paid my dues, I'm 33 and graduating with my phd in a year. I'm in my 5th year of a guaranteed 6 year position. I'm planning on starting a family after I get out of academia but now that I'm having twins, I get the feeling that I'm not going to have time for work, research, AND kids. I have a partner but he also works a job that keeps him very busy, and we will have to do a lot of communal parenting. My department is very mom friendly, but I also know that my department is in a position to let me go if I can't get my work done. <br><br>I've been on the fence about staying in academia, but I've always wanted to be a professor, and now I don't know if I have a choice. I'm terrified of dropping out of school after essentially 8 years, and I don't know if my partner and I can handle the expenses of two kids and only one salary. There's a lot of things up in the air right now.