I’m gonna text my ex A LOT TONIGHT, and it’s going to make me feel good.

She has been so neat with me and kind, she’s a sweet girl. Her sister is going to house sit and stay at her place while she is away for the next week or so. I am going to text my ex a lot and tell her how beautiful her sister is, how I am going to spend a lot of time on her bed, how I’m gonna feel her sister’s clothes and admire them. (Don’t worry my ex is good with it, she does not care, she knows I’m just doing this to get her out of my mind, we broke up a year ago)<br>I’m just an incel, a loser. Nobody wants to be with me, I am ugly, short, fat, and balding. I don’t have any aspirations in life other than to just exist, I don’t really have any desire to improve my life, I’m just going to go with the flow. I don’t have any hobbies, I don’t work out, I don’t have any passions or hobbies. I think I’m just a failure in life. A schizo loser that cannot get a girlfriend no matter how much I try or how hard I work. So this is my revenge.<br>I just want her to pretend that I’m her boyfriend. I just want her to pretend that she loves me.<br>But it’s all fake, I’m gonna make her believe that I love her, but I’m actually just gonna be mentally abusing her. I’m gonna be mean sometimes, I’m not gonna let her go out with her friends, I’m not gonna let her spend time with her family. I’m gonna make her spend time with me, that’s it. It’s not that I care about her… it’s just that what if she finds another guy when she’s out? What if she realizes I’m ugly and she leaves me? I don’t want to lose her. I’m gonna abuse her, I’m gonna be mean to her. I’m not gonna let her watch movies with her dad, I’m not gonna let her hug her mom. I’m gonna be her boyfriend, but I’m also going to be her captor. I’m gonna keep her from living her life.<br>I’m going to text my ex a lot. I’m gonna tell her that I like her sister and I hope she gets jealous. I’m gonna tell her that she doesn’t know anything about me, that she can’t talk to me like that. I’m gonna tell her that I’m gonna come to her place and I’ll do what I want in her room. I’m gonna tell her all of this, she is probably going to get very upset.<br>I like my ex, but she rejected me. But I’m gonna get her jealous. I’m gonna make her feel bad for dumping me. I’m gonna make her know that she can’t talk to me like that, that I can do what I want and she’s not my boss and she’s not my girl anymore. I’m gonna make her upset. I’m gonna get my revenge. I’m gonna be who I wanna be, even if it makes her cry and feel uncomfortable. I’m gonna hurt her because she’s been mean to me.<br>I’m gonna text my ex a lot. I’m gonna hurt her. I’m gonna make her feel jealous, I’m gonna make her feel bad. I’m gonna do what I want, she doesn’t have the right to tell me what to do. She doesn’t have the right to tell me not to talk about her sister. I’m a bad guy, I’m a bad boy. I’m not good. I’m not a nice guy, I’m not a gentleman. I’m a creepy loser who cannot talk to girls and I’m going to do whatever I want and hurt whoever I want.