Can't get through a paragraph without getting distracted and bowled over by other thoughts

I can't finish a single paragraph without my mind running away with other things. It's making me cry because it's been this way for as long as I can remember, and I know it's why I never did well in high school or college. I hate it so much. I'm tired of this stupid monkey brain that I can't control. I'm tired of spending hours upon hours reading a single little section of a book. I'm tired of not being able to reflect on things that I read. I hate it so much. I will get through a paragraph and then, instead of thinking about the content of what I just read, I'll think about how I hate my brain. Then I'll make a new tab on my laptop and start to type out a rant about how I hate my brain, but then I'll stop halfway through the first sentence and start thinking about how I'm going to carry out this minor house repair task that I've been thinking about for the last few days. To remind myself to do it, I'll open up a new tab in my browser, navigate to Pinterest, and create a new pin under the category 'Home repairs'. Then I'll close Pinterest and go back to my rant, but I'll read the first sentence that I wrote and think about how I've written it before (and I have), and then I'll start to think about how I've wasted my life. I'll close my laptop (I'll use another example in a second, though it's the same idea) and go to the kitchen to make a snack, because all of this has made me really hungry. When I'm eating my snack, I'll think about what else I need to do today, and I'll think that I'm never going to be able to get through this book. When I finally sit back down to read, I'll get through half of a paragraph before I start to think about this new band that I'll start, and all of the instruments that I'll need to buy for it, and where I'll find the money to buy those instruments, and how I'll get the instruments around because I don't have a car, and how I'll find people to play in the band with me, and how I'll get gigs. <br><br>That's not even the worst part -- the worst part is that I try to use all these tricks to help myself, but none of them work. I take notes on everything I read, but then I don't review the notes. I make flashcards for vocabulary, but then I don't review the flashcards. I block out all social media on my laptop, but then I try to circumvent that every five seconds. I try to use self-discipline by putting my phone on black and white and hiding it in the other room. I've seen some people talk about different types of attention deficit disorder and how they need to know which one they have in order to determine which treatment they need, but I've read all of those lists and none of them sound quite right. I saw a neurologist two years ago, but their workup didn't show any problems. I know I need to do something because I know how much it was holding me back while I was in school, and I know that I need to do something about it. I just don't know what. I've been buying this stuff called BrainCore Focus and it doesn't seem to help. I've also been running everyday and I'm not sure how much that helps. I'm tired of being like this, and I know that I can change because I've been able to make changes in my life before, but I don't know what changes to make. <br><br>But if I ask Chambers, then that will be too long to read and no one will respond anyway. Then again, I don't know what else to do, so I'll post here. If you have any suggestions, please let me know.