I used to be a catgirl lover. I can now see I was wrong and I'm sorry for the pain I may have caused

I used to be a catgirl lover. I loved the idea of catgirls, I'd look at catgirl porn, and loved the image of catgirls since I was around 8. I'm gay so I never sexualized them, but for some reason, this didn't stop me from loving the idea of catgirls even more. I used to do normal things like be obsessed with a cartoon and never let it go for a couple of years, but when I found out about nekos 4 years ago, this obsession never let me go.<br><br>I came to the realization that my obsession with nekos is creepy and fetishy a week ago. I reacted very poorly. I didn't scream and cry like I do when I'm upset, I just sat there in silence, got up and went to bed, and didn't say anything about it. I didn't even talk to my online friends about it.<br><br>I'm sorry for the pain I caused catgirls, I'm sorry for using them as a sexual fantasy to cope with my life as a 12-year-old. I'm sorry that I still have the same number as my birthday in my username.<br><br>I'm very sorry if I hurt you.<br><br>Edit: I am not homophobic towards catgirls, I am not sure who my concern is towards. I care about all people and I don't want to hurt anyone.<br><br>Edit2: I was very attached to the idea of catgirls so I'm not sure if I should let go of it right now.