I hired a male sex worker for 2 hours just to hug me and hold me and I gave him flash cards of what to say to make me feel better.

Before I start I want to say I’m a 22 year old female. I’m fairly good looking but I’ve never had a boyfriend in my life (not for a lack of trying). This all happened last weekend. <br><br>I was feeling incredibly lonely, so much so that it actually hurt. I wanted someone to hold me and be there for me. I knew I wouldn’t have the confidence or the time to go out and find someone to do this so I did the next best thing, I hired a male sex worker. <br><br>I chose a man who was tall, strong and fairly good looking. I knew he was just doing it for the money but that he had to follow my instructions as I was paying him. <br><br>When he came to my house I was super nervous. He was very attractive and I don’t think I’d ever been that close to a man before. <br><br>I was just shaking when I spoke to him, I managed to tell him what I wanted and he said “okay”. I was so nervous and I don’t know why. <br><br>He hugged me and he told me to relax and let my whole body go. I cried immediately. <br><br>I gave him some flashcards throughout the two hours with things I personally wanted him to say. <br><br>Things like “do you wanna come and watch a movie with me” “I know you’re a virgin but that’s okay, I like that about you” “you’re so attractive, how are you single?” “I really like your smile”. <br><br>He read them all out and during the whole time he was holding me. I felt like I was in a relationship in that moment. <br><br>I was shaking with happiness, I never felt anything like this before. When he left I was upset again. The feeling of being lonely is back but I guess I have something to look forward to. I will 100% do this again, maybe even with the same man.