My husband wants me to look for a new place to live. We've been married for 5 years but have split up several times during these years. Every time, he's explaining to me that it's because of my depression. How can I tell him this time, it's not about my depression, it's about him?

We've been married for 5 years.<br><br>Our arguments are usually about money and spending. We've never been able to agree on things but what's important to me is that he never communicated with me. He's never communicated with me in a healthy way. He's never communicated with me at all. He's never let me know what's going on in his head. He's never been able to burden me with all that's on his shoulders. He's never been able to let me in.<br><br>I found this a little strange at first but I figured it was okay. I figured he needed some time and space. I figured he could be compared to a turtle which is what made him so interesting in the first place.<br><br>Later it became increasingly difficult to live with. Our arguments were so different. He explained everything but never really listened. I felt like there was something wrong with me. I felt like I was the one explaining things which is what he got angry about. It was like he never realized he was never communicating with me.<br><br>Last week after getting home from a relaxing day at work, I was told we were splitting up. He has decided he wants to divorce me. He told me I have 3 months to leave him alone for good. He wants me to move back home. Our marriage has been a lie and now he wants me to disappear.<br><br>I've been really depressed these last few months and he has never taken the time to talk to me about it. He has always said he knows what it's like to be depressed. He has always said he's experienced similar things. But he never talks about it. He never opens up to me. I never know how he's feeling. I never know what's going on in his head.<br><br>I've been feeling really lonely but he's stronger than I am. He's never shown any signs he's been feeling lonely too. He's never shown any signs he cares about me. He's never shown any signs that he's dealing with anything. He's never shown any signs that he's struggling.<br><br>We've been married for 5 years and I realize now that I will never be able to help him.<br><br>&#x200B;