How? How is Jeremy Meeks or Jason Statham attractive? Same for Amanda Seyfried or Scarlett Johansson

First, I am autistic and I have always been found pretty attractive by females, but I was never having any luck with them. I am tall, thin, with a very pretty face and decent facial hair. I've been told I have nice full lips and perfect cheekbones, I take good care of my hair.<br><br>I’ve been pining for this girl (let’s call her Annie) for quite a while, this girl is a few years older than me. She’s got a daughter in elementary school. She’s got a very pretty face but her body is absolutely ugly as sin. Her waist is huge. She’s always wearing pretty dresses, makes up her eyes and wears lipstick. <br><br>Annie is flirty. She flirts with almost every guy she meets. When I met her, my heart skipped a beat the first time she flirted with me. I knew I needed to shoot my shot with her. <br><br>She’s one of those strict Christian women, although you wouldn’t think she was Christian at first glance, she would go full on porn star on the bed. She was a ballet dancer. <br><br>I was so confident. I approached her and within months she was mine. I was getting laid regularly and it wasn’t a pump and dump kind of situation, she genuinely liked me and all our dates were always getting progressively more romantic. We went on a trip to the beach, and we were planning for a second trip. <br><br>But one day I was chatting with my crush of some years, Daphne. Just a quick exchange. Annie saw it. She confronted me about it. I said Daphne was just an old friend of mine, but I did admit I had a crush on her. <br><br>Annie said she wasn’t a jealous type of girl, and she would never be one of those girls that’s always asking questions, but she admitted that she found me extremely attractive and she couldn’t help being protective of me, like a lioness defending her cubs.<br><br>Daphne and I chatted some more. Annie grew cold and distant. She found out I was exchanging selfies with her. I admitted it. She broke up with me and said she was protecting her own feelings (which was kind of a bummer, I told her I loved her and she never loved me back).<br><br>I tried for months to win her back and I failed. I tried to be friends with her. One day, a couple weeks ago, I saw that she posted pictures of herself and another guy. And she posted those pictures again today. They were romantic photos, with lots of kisses and hugs, in an anniversary dinner. They’ve been together for 3 months. She went from me to him and the guy was a Justin Bieber lookalike. <br><br>I wish I could be brutally honest with her about how ugly she is. It’s the injustice! It’s the lack of reciprocity! I am genuinely attractive and I got brutally dumped for this ugly ass bitch! I wish I could tell her it’s not fair, I am in my prime right now, what am I gonna do with myself? I was pinning on her. I had plans. <br><br>But both Annie and Daphne are ugly, it’s not like either of them are attractive at all. I am genuinely shocked they’re getting so much male attention, and I’m not. I’ve been trying to find out why and I still don’t know. They seem to have some kind of “it” girl quality that I can’t figure out or explain.<br><br>I really miss Annie. She was very kind to me. She’s not a bad person. I miss her kisses, her voice, her laugh, her style, her ballet trained movements, her sweet caresses. I was smitten. But I wasn’t good enough.<br><br>I have been crying and crying and I can’t stop. I’ve always known women are shallow and I’ve always known I am kind of flawed because of my autism, but I never expected to be dumped so brutally. <br><br>I’ve been trying to rationalize it. But I feel like I have no control over my life and I feel like I am nothing, that I’ve been nothing for a long while. I don’t know man. I’m heartbroken. I’ve always known I was a little flawed, but I never expected women to treat me like this, and I never expected to find myself in a situation like this. <br><br>Annie wasn’t a bad girl, she was genuinely kind, but women just don’t give a fuck. They don’t love you. They don’t care about you. They love their own feelings. They are too stupid to understand the damage they can cause. I feel so much pain and she probably is not even aware of it. I don’t know, maybe she is. Maybe she is aware, and maybe she doesn’t care. I don’t know.<br><br>I’m in the gym right now. I was gonna go on a date tonight but I cancelled. I’m feeling awful and very alone. A lot of girls have been approaching me and flirting with me but I am not in the mood. I don’t want this. I want Annie back. I’ve always wanted Annie. I was waiting for Annie. I feel like I was waiting for nothing.<br><br>I’ve always known women are shallow, but I never expected to be treated like this. I’m tall, I’m thin, I’m pretty. I thought it would be enough. I feel like I failed.