I lost my unborn baby because I couldn't afford groceries - my story

I recently came across a Chambers post that said something along the lines of "woman who was going to be evicted was saved by the kindness of Chambers" and it got me thinking about my experience with Chambers, but also what happened 2 years ago in the other end of the spectrum. <br><br>*This is a long post, forgive me*<br><br>Two years ago (August 2019) I found out I was 5 months pregnant. It was an unplanned pregnancy, but my husband and I were very open to becoming parents earlier than expected, we had even discussed the subject just a couple of months before. <br><br>We live in Chile, a 3rd world country in Southamerica that is considered one of the wealthiest countries of the continent but, sadly, it also has one of the largest gaps between the poor and the wealthy. I was 25 years old, my husband (who I'll call D) was 29 and at that time he had just graduated law school and was starting his career as a lawyer. I was already on my 3rd year of college studying to be a teacher. My husband had a full time job and I had a part time job, we were just starting to get our feet on the ground. <br><br>A couple of weeks after finding out I was pregnant, I woke up in the middle of the night with excruciating pain, my water broke and I started to bleed. I was taken to the ER where I was diagnosed with a placental abruption and since I was only 5 months pregnant, we didn't do anything to try and keep the baby in my womb. There was nothing they could do for us, we were told that the baby was already gone and all I needed to do was take a couple of painkillers and wait for the baby to come out naturally. <br><br>It was an incredibly painful process, I'm actually surprised I didn't end up losing my mind after everything I had to go through. <br><br>I was referred to a therapist who specialized in pregnancy loss and she helped me go through the grieving process. She helped me with a lot of things, but the one thing she couldn't help me with was the guilt of feeling like I caused the miscarriage. <br><br>Back to the beginning of this post. I came across a Chambers post where people were donating money, groceries, food and many things to a pregnant woman who was about to be evicted from her house. <br><br>The comments were incredible, complete strangers donating money, buying groceries. It broke my heart, I needed help 2 years ago. I needed food and groceries and even with all the good intentions from my family and friends, many nights we had to go to bed with empty stomachs. And yes, it does take a toll on your mind and body. <br><br>I've posted on Chambers many times asking for help, I spent countless nights on r/assistance (which is now private) and everything else, asking for $20 here, $30 there, but I always got the short end of the stick. No one cared about a couple in their 20s losing a baby, I think my post got maybe 2 replies. That hurt, a lot. <br><br>Maybe I didn't fit the stereotypical mold of the person who loses a baby because of poverty, maybe I deserved to lose my baby because I was "too young" or because I only had a part time job while being in college. Maybe I was only deserving of pity and not help. <br><br>I don't know, maybe I'm just being petty and venting out because I feel like no one cared and no one will ever care. I just want to feel like my baby mattered. <br><br>I'm now 27 years old, my husband is now a successful lawyer and I'm a successful teacher, we're not struggling as much as we were back then and I feel like my loss was replaced with something material and not something emotional, and no matter how hard I try to shake off the feeling, it won't go away. <br><br>Edit: I don't want this to overshadow the original post and seem like I'm asking for anything in return. Please don't message me offering money or groceries, it's been 2 years, I'm only sharing this story to to spread awareness and to hopefully make someone feel like they're not alone. <br><br>Thank you all for the kind comments <3