My gf and I have decided we hate each other

We're going to a counselor soon, we've been together for a year. She's definitely the love of my life. I can't fathom the thought of ever being with anyone else. Happy couple.<br><br>I've been getting anxious lately and I've found my gf to be very annoying. Most of it's childish stuff, but I could see how some of it's genuine. We've had a few little arguments over the weeks, once she got her feelings hurt really badly and I didn't know how to fix it so I just kind of sat around with her while she sulked, I hate myself for it.<br><br>I've been getting more and more stressed with work. I brought that up with her and she said she was also getting stressed. I told her I don't know what to expect from her. I was really surprised and they were words i didn't even mean to say. She was hurt by them, like I was this big fall for her. She thought I was someone who would always know how to make things right. I told her I wasn't that person, but she thought I was. I'm just a person who is in over his head. I'm not "the one" and I don't know what to expect of her either.<br><br>With some help from an old friend, we've both decided to hate each other. She thinks she's better off being single, I think she's right. I think I'll be able to take care of myself. We're going together to a counselor, because I want to be friends.<br><br>I know it's hard to understand, but I don't know how to hate her. I feel like I still love her, but it's stronger than that. She's my soulmate. I could never love anyone else. It's not just about being in a relationship, it's about always being together. I don't want to lose that.<br><br>She said she's reinforced my fall every time I try to come down. She needs to not be "the one." She needs a chance to fall in love with herself. She needs a chance to fall in love with someone else. I need to do the same.<br><br>I don't know how to let someone go that I love, but I need to. I need to not try to fix things. I need to let her fall. I need to fall too. I need to hate her, so that I can let her go.<br><br>It's hard. She's so beautiful and I think about how much I love her and I want to be with her. She's the person I want to spend my life with, but I need to let her go. I need to hate her. I need to find a way to stop her from being the most beautiful woman in the world.<br><br>I'm in a bit of an existential crisis and I don't know how to help myself.<br><br>Any thoughts?