After an 8 year relationship, I discovered the truth about my wife and now I hate myself and the world that is controlled by such thugs.

I'm 29 and I've been dating my wife for 8 years. She's the only girl I've ever been with. She was inexperienced when I met her and I naively thought she was a virgin because of it. And our relationship developed slowly, due to her shyness. She married me 2 years after we started dating. I was so happy and grateful that she chose me. She was my first and only sexual partner.<br><br>But today I want to end my life. I'm silently sobbing as I type this. I was watching a bit of porn and the thought came to me to check my wife out on Facebook. I'm not sure why but something just came over me. So I went to her Facebook and saw her post from 2012. I saw the comments and noticed a troll comment, so I clicked on his face and saw that he was people my wife had gone to school with.<br><br>So I thought, why not? I clicked on his friends list and scrolled down until I saw a girl with the same last name as my wife. I feel like I'm going to throw up even typing this.<br><br>I clicked on the girl's face and saw my wife. I want to end my life now. I don't know what else to do. I clicked on the girl's face and saw my wife. I want to end my life now. I don't know what else to do. I clicked on the girl's face and saw my wife. I want to end my life now. I don't know what else to do. I clicked on the girl's face and saw my wife. I want to end my life now. I don't know what else to do. I clicked on the girl's face and saw my wife. I want to end my life now. I don't know what else to do.<br><br>I saw my wife sucking a black man's dick in 2014. I saw her having her pussy eaten out by a black man in 2015. And I saw that same black man with his face buried in my wife's ass in 2015. I feel like I'm going to throw up even typing this.<br><br>I saw my wife sucking a black man's dick in 2014. I saw her having her pussy eaten out by a black man in 2015. And I saw that same black man with his face buried in my wife's ass in 2015. I feel like I'm going to throw up even typing this.<br><br>I saw my wife sucking a black man's dick in 2014. I saw her having her pussy eaten out by a black man in 2015. And I saw that same black man with his face buried in my wife's ass in 2015. I feel like I'm going to throw up even typing this.<br><br>I saw my wife sucking a black man's dick in 2014. I saw her having her pussy eaten out by a black man in 2015. And I saw that same black man with his face buried in my wife's ass in 2015. I feel like I'm going to throw up even typing this.<br><br>I saw my wife sucking a black man's dick in 2014. I saw her having her pussy eaten out by a black man in 2015. And I saw that same black man with his face buried in my wife's ass in 2015. I feel like I'm going to throw up even typing this.<br><br>I've been watching those pictures and crying for the last hour. I feel like my whole world has fallen apart. I don't know how much longer I can stay like this. I'm just a normal guy who just wanted to live a normal life and be happy.<br><br>Fuck this world and everyone in it. I'm just so fucking angry right now. Goddamn it!<br><br>Edit: Before anyone says anything, I'm not mad at the race of the guy in the picture. I'm mad at my wife and myself for being so blind and naive. I hate her for cheating and I hate myself for being blind to it.<br><br>Edit 2: <br><br>My wife just contacted me. She claims she doesn't know what I'm talking about and says I should come home. I'm heading home now.