There’s something wrong with the women in my family

I have to be careful here, as I have a sister who may see this. If she does, Nat, this isn’t you. <br><br>My mother is a narcissist. After my parents divorced, she was reasonably okay, but after remarrying and the death of her mother, she became worse. We’ve tried managing her, cutting ties, getting help, but nothing works. She truly believes she’s a victim in all this. Since I’ve grown up and moved away, and my siblings have either distanced themselves or moved away as well, her newest obsession is my step-sister, N. <br><br>Nat has been the golden child and favorite since she was born. My siblings are myself and two brothers, and we were told we were such a blessing, and then Nat rolled around and mom’s obsession skyrocketed. In no uncertain terms, my mom said we were ‘生まれるまい’ - she wishes we were never born. <br><br>Our father died when I was 3, and my mom met her husband when I was 5. I was lucky to have an older brother who protected me, and since my mom’s husband and I got along well, he was always nice to me. <br><br>One night, I was 15 or so, my mom and her husband were arguing. I was in the main bedroom, and Nat was sleeping in her room. My mom’s husband came in and told me to pack a bag for Nat and meet him in the car. I didn’t ask questions, I just did it, and he drove us to his sister’s house. <br><br>His sister, a lovely woman in her 50s, was very nice and let us stay with her. My mom’s husband told me to never repeat what he told me, and then told me that our mom was scaring him, and he was afraid of what she might do, especially to Nat, since she was the light of her life. <br><br>A few days passed and I began to worry. What about school? What about my brothers? I begged my mom’s husband to tell me what was going on. He broke down and told me that our mom had been threatening to kill us. He didn’t know what set it off, but he knew he couldn’t stay. He wanted to file for divorce and was gathering evidence to have her declared an unfit mother. <br><br>I was shocked. I knew she was strange, but we all lived with it. We were so happy to have her happy, you know? <br><br>A week later, my mom showed up at his sister’s house. She was crying and begging him to come back, to forgive her and that she would do anything for her sweet Nat and wonderful husband to come home. <br><br>My mom’s husband broke down, and we came home. Things were okay until he went on a business trip. <br><br>While he was away, my mom became distant. She stopped talking to me and wouldn’t let me see Nat without her supervision. I was sick so I stayed home, and I saw her holding a pillow over Nat’s face. I screamed and she spun around, letting Nat go. She told me she was just playing. <br><br>The next day, Nat was ill. She was coughing and sneezing, and my mom was so sweet to her. I offered to make Nat her favorite food, but my mom said no, she’d take care of it. I offered again, and she told me to go to my room. <br><br>I snuck back out and saw her holding Nat underwater in the tub. I screamed, and she let Nat up. She started crying and begging me not to tell her husband, saying that she loved Nat so much, and she wanted to make sure Nat was safe. I was only 15, I didn’t know what to do. <br><br>At this point, I should have called the police. I know that now, and if I could go back, I would. I didn’t want to ruin my mother, I just wanted her to be happy. <br><br>My mom’s husband came home and Nat told him everything. He called the police and filed for divorce. My mom is on a restraining order, and I was forced to testify against her. My mom was deemed unfit and Nat was adopted by my mom’s husband. <br><br>I was in college at the time, and my mom was out of jail. She tried to kill me. I wasn’t there when it happened, I was on campus, but she broke into my apartment. The police caught her hiding under the bed. She had a knife and said it was for me. <br><br>She’s currently serving a 7 year sentence. She got out of jail for one year, and during that time, my mom’s husband and Nat moved to a state 2 states over. When my mom found out, she was angry. She tried to get me to tell her where they were, but I said they were with a family who was watching them for the time being. She got angry, and when she went silent, I knew it was over. <br><br>I moved back to my home state, to a city an hour away from where my mom was staying. I knew she would come for me, and I was prepared. <br><br>Last month, she tried to break in. She was arrested and put in jail, awaiting a trial. The day she would have been released was today. She didn’t show up for trial; she escaped from jail and was reported missing. <br><br>I haven’t heard from her. I’ve been told by the police that she’s on a kill list, and if they find her, they’ll shoot to kill. <br><br>But she’s still out there. Watching me, waiting for me. I’m a single woman with 3 cats. I’m fat, and I know she’ll take advantage of that. I’m not scared, but I will defend myself. <br><br>My siblings and husband have been there for me through all this. We call each other every night. <br><br>I just know she’ll come for me one day. <br><br>Mother, if you’re reading this, you’re not my mother. I’ve cut ties and I haven’t and will not think of you again. You’re just a figure. I’m glad I wasn’t born into your house, even if that’s the only thing you wish for.